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Shyness 1

April 5, 2016 In Community, Writing

Letting Myself Be Known

I was painfully shy when I was young, unable to even take a bottle from my aunt. She had to leave it for me in an empty room before I would gather up enough courage to go retrieve it. I got over that shyness and most people would call me a “people person.”

Those people never know the fear underneath the surface, the way I struggle with each interaction to fight the desire to please everyone, scared of what others think of me. In the past I have let this fear disable me completely.

But in my writing I can be bold and brave.

There is also this magical thing called editing. I can take back my initially clumsy words, make sure my ideas are fully formed, my prose beautifully expressed.

I wish there was the ability to edit what comes out of my mouth, to hide my fearful eyes behind a screen so people can’t really see.

But then that isn’t really being known, is it?

In a year already full of exciting and scary adventures, I am about to embark on another trip that has me equally thrilled and frightened.

A week from today I will be heading out to Grand Rapids, Michigan for The Calvin Festival of Faith and Writing. It is a gathering that happens every two years which brings together speakers and writers to discuss issues of “faith, ethics, justice, and the craft of storytelling.”

The over 61-page program I have been perusing highlighting the speakers, workshops, dinners, and networking times with writing industry professions has me reeling. I have a list already two pages long of people I hope to meet in the four-day period of the festival.

Many of these are people who I feel like I have gotten to know over the past couple years. I have read their words and peeked into the deep recesses of their lives, but not seen their faces outside of a photo on a computer screen.

These are people I have let know me as well as I have been vulnerable, poured my deepest feelings out onto the page and sent them out into the world.

There are writers alongside me in the Redbud Writer’s Guild, The Mudroom, and SheLoves Magazine (the three most frequent places I read and write). These ladies have prayed with me, counseled me, spurred me on when I was ready to give up, and shared the dark and scary parts of sharing your faith on the page with me.

Up until now they have been two-dimensional. Now they are going to become flesh. Continue Reading

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